Christmas Eve Me

aye, Christmas Eve.
i'm at work.
and i've already run out of things to do here.

a lot of our clients are on break, so they're not placing their usual daily orders.
i've already typed out the back orders for today, but i can't turn them in yet.
i'm really tired because i had work til 2AM this morning, but stayed up til 4. i haven't been this tired in a while since i always sleep so much nowadays. haha


i haven't seen my family since Friday. what a weird feeling.
the past couple days of living by myself have been really, really nice.

i mean, i still do the same things i usually do, but i just feel freer. when i come home, i know that i don't have to talk to anyone. i usually don't like to talk much at home. not because i don't like my family, but that i need a time in my day all to myself, and that's usually when i'm home. my alone time keeps me sane.


some of us had dinner Saturday night. it was a Christmas/Thank You dinner for Mr. and Mrs. Apostol. it was cute, being with my close friends like that. eating (a lot of) bread, bagging on each other, taking pictures, stealing oil & vinegar... hahaha we so precious.


last night i had a really nice conversation with Franky. we talked about parents, friends, reputations, etc. it was refreshing. it sucks because a lot of people don't understand him. everyone knows who he is, you know, that tall guy at every show who usually ends up hurting someone. however, people take that for all he is, when that's simply not the case. i like to get to know people, it makes me feel more connected with every element of the world. i want to live as many different lives as i can before i die. i want to evolve into different personas and definitions. i don't think we should live our lives being known as just one thing and one thing only.


i seriously wanna travel so badly.
i thought of it on my drive home from AE this morning.
i thought, wouldn't it be great if i could just see the world?
yeah, it would be.


i'm so fucking bored.
i wish i had friends at work :(

we could talk about everything.