Real Talk

this weather makes me extremely happy. i love gloomy days, they make me want to run away from all of the familiar.
i love this town, this city, this county, this state, this family, these friends.
but i really, really want to break free from the daily grind and breathe in the unknown.

however, i can't walk away from my job. it's chill, rewarding (both financially and career-wise), productive, and ever-so-close to my home. i have a great healthcare plan thanks to my company. i get to network with people from other Fortune 500 companies. if i choose to stay in this field and move up in ranks, or possibly transfer to a different company or whatnot, i have the potential of making a lot of money in the near future. i started this job last October, so i'm getting a raise next month. i don't know what it's going to be, but i'm hoping for at least a 25% increase. i have it pretty sweet here, and i don't take it for granted at all. the longer i'm here, the more i have to consider whether or not to make this my actual career. my bosses and co-workers all tell me that i can be very successful in this field, and they've already started giving me clients to rep on my own (although i still ask others for help). i just don't know if i want to do this for the rest of my life. it's good money, but it doesn't feed to my interests. then again, if i'm already here and planning to stay here for a few more years, what's the point of changing careers later when i'm already in my mid-to-late 20s? perhaps i can just do this for a while, rack up some money, and invest in opening a small cafe or restaurant. life is so unpredictable, and i'm wishing on every star in the sky that it takes me somewhere exciting. i'm meant to do great things, i know it. i just need to get my shit together and focus on saving and worthy investments. i have many hopes and dreams, but they've been fading underneath constant distractions, social obligations, and worldly desires.

1. need to stop going out so often
2. craving alone time at the gallery
3. simplicity


hello, weekend.