Believe in the Good.

yesterday afternoon, i found myself in a position that i'm rarely ever in. i found out that someone's been saying some mean things about me (opinions, not even facts!). to my own surprise, i didn't really get angry, and instead i just brushed it off and thanked my friend who had alerted me to this. the truth was, it really didn't bother me, because the person who had said it is someone i don't care much for, and i understand that she thrives off of the negative attention that her foul tongue receives. whatever floats her boat, i suppose. and although it's still unknown to me and my friend which one of the 2 girls had actually said it first, i'm pretty sure i know who it is (and i'm usually right about these things). makes very little difference, though. they might as well be the same person.

the more and more i thought about it, the more irritated i became. (if only you knew how good i was to her when nobody else wanted her around.) and just as i was about to write her off as a stupid bitch for the 50th time, i remembered the good times we once shared. i became a little sad and disappointed in the way things had turned out, because i was the one who created the distance between us, simply because i couldn't "deal" with being her friend anymore. i never know who is to blame in these situations: the one who drove the other person away, or the one who just gave up on the friendship.

a thought began to repeat itself in my head. i believe in the good in people.
i think that helped more than anything else could have. there was no point in being negative and angry. we give in too easily.

as lame as it may sound, a quote has stuck with me ever since i'd heard it out of Natalie Portman's mouth.
"We've all got meanness in us, but we've got goodness too. And the only thing worth living for is the good. And that's why we've got to make sure we pass it on."

sometimes the world gets me a little carried away with anger, and if i ever have any regrets in my lifetime, it would be my moments of negativity. i wish i could practice what i preach, so that i would always be good and kind and loving to people around me. it's a dirty shame that i can't live up to my own principles.

we've only got ourselves to be responsible for.