To Those Who Love to Run Their Mouths Afoul...

shit talkers.


i don't consider myself one, nor will i ever. i don't believe in it. sure, we all dabble in it a little in our daily lives, but some people live it.

the only time i was ever really bad was in high school, and it was only amongst my friends, and only about people that i didn't really know. even back then, i knew not to talk about my friends or their friends.

i don't understand the mindset of people who constantly talk shit.
i really just can't.

i'm beyond happy that i'm not a subject of the verbal bashing (at least not that i know of), but it seriously irritates me (and everyone else) so much. i want to set a good example by not saying anything at all, but i am only human, and my tolerance only goes so far. and because some people like to talk so much shit, other people react by talking about them. it's a vicious cycle with no resolution!

i often wonder if they know who they are;
if they've realized that, for the lack of better words, everyone hates that shit.

we all have our opinions.
we all have our judgments.
we all get angry sometimes.
however, the difference between us and them is that they have the audacity to voice out the exact words that are killing peace. we give others the benefit of the doubt, because that's how the world should work, but they don't. we don't set our eyes on a person once and decide that we will hate them for the rest of our lives, but they do.


i just wanted to make the point that i see all this shit and it's pissing me off. it's been pissing me off for quite some time now, i just chose to act aloof to it all to avoid getting involved. but enough is enough.
i don't want to be involved, nor do i want to stand idly by and watch the names of good, honorable people get tainted by callous individuals with nothing better to do.


you notice how i didn't call anyone out?
that's how it's supposed to work, not that whole back-fence bullshit.

if anyone chooses to direct their negativity to me, they are welcomed.
i'm not the one who would look bad.

"Great minds discuss ideas;

Average minds discuss events;

Small minds discuss people."

- Eleanor Roosevelt

don't you dare claim to support worldly causes, or love God, or whatever, when you're at home talking shit about your friends.

Pink Elephants

last night, while watching "Dazed and Confused", i began to miss partying.

as juvenile as it sounds, i really miss the long nights of drunken debauchery, witty banter, uncontrollable laughters, and the inevitable crashes.
i even miss getting lifted on some top-notch crop.

i used to participate in all those "activities" seemingly on the daily.


that hasn't been me for quite a while now.
not since October, perhaps.


funny, this morning i received a phone call from my manager.
he asked if i partied this weekend. (yeah, he's weird...) promptly, i replied, "no, i don't do that anymore."
he said, "whaaat? i didn't stop partying until i was 27!"


that made me feel old.
i've peaked at the age of 21.
that cannot be.
that will not do.


come to think of it,
i've been 21 for almost 5 months now, yet, i've actually cut down on the raging.

i grew up all too quickly since i started my new job.
i'd erased my bad habits without looking back.


but, needless to say, i do miss them.



however you want to put it, my goal for this weekend is to get fucked up/cross-faded/smashed/SHAMBIZZED!
:)

Things That Make Me Happy, Pt. 1

♥ the clickity-clacking of the keyboard as you type
♥ the smell of rain
♥ the sound of rapid raindrops falling on cement
♥ playing the drums on Marky's Rock Band
♥ using corded telephones
♥ refilling staples, printer paper, etc.
♥ cleaning my windshield & rear window at the gas stations
♥ strangers who smile
♥ sorting cans and bottles to recycle
♥ friends who give great massages
♥ letting go of useless sentiments & throwing crap out
♥ writing in my planner :)
♥ Sakura Pigma Micron pens
♥ babies
♥ Between The Trees coming to Cali in April
♥ gloomy days
♥ country apple-scented anti-bacterial hand soap


:)


Happy Friday!

Here I am! So, what were your other 2 wishes?

i have not blogged in a while.
partly because i've been quite busy at work, and partly because my mind's been filled with nothing but meaningless blurble.
everything i think/feel is on the surface.
nothing hurts.
i'm just dandy.


...too dandy, perhaps...


it's boring! and i can't complain.
i need to just make things happen for myself.
i need to plan adventures!

i'm guessing my ultimate adventure this year will be New York.
i'm crossing my fingers that it'll happen.
however, i've done nothing to prepare... i don't even know if i have a passport ready.
those things expire after a while, right?

well, i'm going to Mexico next month.
the trip will double as a mini family vacation and as a celebration for my dad's birthday.
you know, my dad being so Mexican and all.
we're going to eat lobsters. :o) haha


so i finally dyed my hair on Monday, since i had been sick of my blue hair for the longest time.
i'm going to grow it out. no cutting for at least a year.
help me keep that promise! por favor <3

gee, i sure have great plans for the future.
AND WHAT A POINTLESS ENTRY!

whatever, it's something to read :)

Hush, Just Stop.

i find it difficult to tolerate other people's weaknesses.
because i am strong.
is that wrong?
(i hate unintentionally rhyming!)

surely, we all have deafening vices, but why do some people succumb to them so much more than they have to?

i'm all for expressing weakness & emotion and turning to your friends, in order to become stronger.
however, i don't respect people who use their unhappy state to gain something because they feel that they deserve some good karma.

another thing: a lot of people hold themselves back with their inability to cope and move on. or they're just purposely hiding behind their problems. it's like checking out hot gay guys. it's a safe sport. you know you can't have them, but you also know that it's not because of anything you're lacking. (non-genitally speaking.)



i understand it is none of my business how people live their lives.
i just wish they wouldn't waste away.


if it ain't broke,
don't take it to the shop to get attention.