My Favorite Weather

the rain makes me ever so happy. it's always been my favorite :)


i'm feeling good. it's Friday!

today is Month End at work, so there is absolutely nothing to do.
the cut-off time for all orders is at 2pm, but i havent received any orders since this morning. i am SO BORED!
i've just been on CNN.com and Facebook all day.

Grog hasn't been to work in a while :( i think he's either sick or on vacation, i don't know. but i do miss his voice.


i wish i could be outside right now. today is gloriously beautiful.
i miss you.


why do i still have so much Polaroid film left?
i wanna use them!


let's have a great weekend, yeah?


so many birthdays lately. so many celebrations :)
makaaa me so happaayyy!




i'm not tired, but i wanna just lay in bed and watch TV.
who's down? :)

I Surrender To You

last night was the SLR/TCF show, and it was pretty damn amazing.
but i'm not gonna lie, i'm pretty bummed that i didn't get to meet Fred or John.


i was THISCLOSE to meeting Fred but i chickened out. he was just walking outside by himself! ughhh, i hate myself for being so shy. i normally don't give a shit about meeting people in bands, but when it comes to those whom i have tremendous admiration and respect for, i do put them on a pedestal. fuck, i didn't even notice him when he was just standing next to me, and Justin had to point him out. oh well, i guess i'll just have to go to more of his shows.
for a new band, The Color Fred was really good. and Straylight Run really did put on a show. i was pretty blown away, and i couldn't take my eyes off of Michelle. hahaha, she's so amazingly beautiful and talented. all the bands were nice and funny. SLR even did 2 additional songs, even though they already ran over their set time.

the show felt SO long. it ran from 7:45 to 11:25. fuuuuuck, i was pretty tired afterwards. dude, indie shows are so different from the shows im used to. everyone just STANDS THERE. the most they do is bop their heads. people don't even sing out loud that much. what the hell?? they're all too nice so you can't push them out of the way or anything.

this girl was really awesome and she let me take her spot, which was the most front & center, for TCF's set :) i got to be under Fred's nose while he sang. <3


the night was great, overall. Justin is definitely one of my favorite people to be in a car conversation with :) the whole night would've been wayyy better if my feet and back didn't hurt from standing still for so long! plus, i'm a grandma on the weekdays. i try to be home by 12am so i can rest up for work the next day. blargh.


i would also like to add that trucks that try to kill me on the street are not cool.

Tragic Endings Are Your Thing, You Love Them

i'm just going to say it:
i'm sick of you people who are "damaged" and/or "broken" from painful experiences/relationships of the past.


grow some fucking balls.


everyone's been hurt. stop being a Debbie Downer and just get over it. seriously. you mope around life like you've got nothing to live for. go read the news, pay some fuckin' attention to the world around you. people are dying of disease, genocide, war, poverty, violence, etc... EVERYDAY. and you're going to just sit there in your nice little house and be depressed about an ex who doesn't love you anymore? or how your daddy doesn't treat you with respect, or how your "friends" don't talk to you anymore? come on, seriously, why do you think you lost those friends in the first place?


i have ended friendships with people whom i thought were just hopeless, and utterly pathetic. there are just some people who prefer to hide behind their "problems" and blame everything on their lack of "stability" and "happiness".


bullshit.


anyone who doesn't attempt to rise above their feelings of despair, and opts for a temporary solution instead, is a coward.

you can do all the drugs you want and have promiscuous sex with as many guys as you want, you'll never be happy this way. you'll just dig a deeper rut for yourself and eventually hate yourself in the future for the stupid decisions you make today.


stop being such a burden to those around you. if you can't see a brighter tomorrow for yourself, then you shouldn't bother using other people to feel better. you're just wasting everyone else's time.


if you can't appreciate all that you have in your life, then what's the point of you even being alive?
go donate your organs to someone who would actually give a fuck.



drink the poison, when you think it's over
inevitable, Verona lives inside of you.

Possible Rain On Friday

so yesterday, right before the end of work, we each received an invitation to the company's annual Christmas banquet. i pondered and pondered upon it, knowing that while i would be eating free food (Todai), i would be eating alone because of the whole having-no-friends-at-work thing. i was already leaning towards not going when i finally noticed that the dinner is on December 7, the same night as the Spice Girls concert. did i somehow know, when i purchased the Spice Girls tickets, that i would be saving myself from a difficult decision 2 months later? anyway, i'm glad that i can't go. i prefer eating sushi with friends, not NOBODY.


tonight was supposed to be the Straylight Run show at the El Ray Theatre, except it got CANCELLED! i bet it's because there was an error with the free tickets deal and therefore the whole thing got kicked out the door. the SLR members have made it very clear that they're bummed about the cancelled show. howeverrrrr, i'm still going to see them tomorrow night at the Glasshouse with FRED MASCHERINO!! :D
i thought i was going to see them all twice, but i suppose i'm content with just once :)
my 2 favorite ex-guitarists of Taking Back Sunday in one night... i don't know man, that's too good.


for anyone who didn't already know this, the album "Tell All Your Friends" changed my LIFE. okay, maybe not life, but it was the gateway to the plethora of beautiful music that i love today. i'm sure everyone has a band like that in their lives, and TBS just happens to be mine. so yes, John Nolan means a lot to me. and i'm going to see him for the first time tomorrow night. i'm quite excited!

:)

Wanted: More

the 4-day weekend was phenomenal.
being at work right now feels like shit :(
howeverrrrr, i'm glad to be making money again.
because of the holiday, i have 16 less hours of pay on my next paycheck. fuck!


i got my first flat tire on Friday morning. dang, i did NOT know what to do, nor did Helpful Isaiah. hahaha, thankfully, DavidJames came to my rescue! ♥ ♥


So Beat It last night was amazing.
i don't remember all the details... but fun times indeed!
as long as i'm with the family, i'm happy.



i'm alone at work today. well, not really alone-alone, but my immediate superiors are both out of the office, meaning i have to deal with the East Coast customers all by myself today :( scary, me no like.



so i re-watched Office Space yesterday. it actually made me feel worse about having this job. of course, it was fun to see how much truth was embedded in the movie, but it was also kinda sad at the same time. it's like, dang, i sit in a cubicle for 8.5 hours a day, 5 days a week. depressing?
don't get me wrong, i like this job, and i'm grateful. but i find myself less & less excited to go to work everyday, even for the money. i know i always talk about how there's not too much to do here, but it's the fact that i have to be here for seemingly the ENTIRE day everyday. it's tedious shiz.




i would like some more excitement in my life, por favor.
thanks.